Anons and their hater messages. My thoughts.

When I get hate messages, I usually save them. Why? I’m not too sure.

I guess maybe… to look back on what anonymous haters had to say about me. I hate to say it, but… Anonymous hate messages are hurtful no matter how much you already knew that about yourself. It still hurts when OTHER people say it to you. It’s like adding salt to a wound. It’s usually about how I’m ugly and imperfect, etc. The usual thing that I already know about myself. Well, it’s just me and my super low self-esteem. So yeah, it should hurt less when anons say it, but it doesn’t. I try to not let it affect me, but it does. It makes me feel like there’s no hope. People are always degrading other people. Maybe my friends are too nice to tell me the truth, so I need anonymous people to tell me the truth. I know I’m stupid to let it affect me, but at the same time, it doesn’t affect me THAT much when I already think like that about myself. It’s just… low self-esteem plus me, and my insecurities. I don’t think I look THAT ugly though, esp when I put effort into it. It’s just how I am, and it’s hard to change my mindset of what I think about myself.  

(Source: gchu)